sigh

sigh, sigh, sigh
acc assignment
sigh, sigh, sigh
last assignment
sigh, sigh, sigh
tak tau buat
sigh, sigh, sigh
no one knows how
sigh, sigh, sigh
the only one who knows
sigh, sigh, sigh
charges me 100 per hour
sigh,sigh,sigh
so dam expensive
sigh, sigh, sigh
what can i do?

training-less

What is this?
Why no training?
Why is my coach at China Masters?
And no one is there to replace him?
And why are we not informed?
What is this?

Ended up just playing matches

Highlight: beating Eugene(me 2nd bro)
18-21, 21-16, 25-23

I used to beat him, but after we started training approx 3-4 years ago, he has massive improvements, beating me, prob because he's younger(in denial, haha).
But now, I'm back!

peace, calmness, serenity, tranquility

Angel fish = delicate, graceful, proud

"kampolo"= a mixed breed of parrot fish



My dad's latest collection. Just look at him up there. Semi naked. lol. Dad and i share the interest and passion for fish. Just looking at them swim really calms me down. We can chat and observe the fishes for hours. Just one part of our big fish collections.

Pride and Passion

*emo mode*

Have you ever felt that the world is very unjust?
Have you ever felt that everything isn't fair for you?
Have you ever felt that tomorrow might not always be a better day?
Have you ever felt that you do not deserve this?
Have you ever felt that you have given everything and yet you do not get the results?
Have you ever felt that things always don't go your way?
Have you ever felt that your efforts are all wasted down the drain?

I'm feeling those right now. I have this feeling, always. Since secondary.
I hope it will not be for the rest of my life.

Why? Of all the people why me? What did I do to deserve this?
I put in so much of effort and time on my research and my results?
It's as though i don't even have to put in effort to get those marks!
I'm so tired, frustrated and disappointed.
It reminds me of PMR, working so hard and yet missed an A
It reminds me of CPE, being hardworking and so what? Almost pass.
Almost = Nothing
I'm so sick of all these happening to me!

The worst part is, you see people get to score effortlessly!
Why is the world so unfair?
You see people getting stupid assignments from seniors and make it theirs!
I did my research, I made my assumptions and argued based on it.
I have my stand.
But the suggested answer is very objective
I thought Law was supposed to be very subjective?

I feel that the world is against me. What can I do?

And yet i have to shove all these inside to put on a happy face to send off one of my good friend(Mel JC) to Ireland just now. When all my friends teared, my heart wanted to tear as well.

How could this happen to me?

*emo mode* for the entire day.

Summary of

Today's Wednesday.

10-11am Business Law tute
11-1pm Marketing lecture
2-3pm Macroeconomics tute
3-5pm Business Law lecture

Exceptionally very busy day!
Chased after Dr.Vanitha, my law tutor and lecturer
But she walks super ultra fast!
Sent her an email, hoping that I can get my assignment back by this week
Or else, after the holidays! I'll die of mental exhaustion by then!

-_-

Took me 15 minutes to sign in, cuz i forgotten my password! -_-
Today was Kingston(my bro)'s bday
He got his present from me earlier this year, which was
RM200 subsidy for his new hp
It was supposed to be doubtful debt, but now, it's bad debt, meaning, unrecoverable!
LOL.

Last Sat(3days ago) was my mom's bday.
Bought her some shirt cuz that's the only thing she will wear
Necklace, bracelet, she keeps it even if we bought it for her
Still waiting for money from bros cuz we shared it -_-
As a result of the present, all of us(her sons) got RM50 reload!
But i am still broke, and it's a week more before the next month!

Now, my mom is reading "The Economist" magazine, ALOUD!
What's her prob?
I can read it by myself, or rather she knows I'd be too lazy to read so,
She becomes our newscaster! LOL

Still a little sick and yet attended coaching session and working at the bad-shop until night

What a day! Another long day tomorrow!

BLACK HAWK DOWN!!

MayDay!! Black Hawk Down!!
Down with fever, flu, body ache, muscle ache, tiredness, fatigue and everything!!!

It's been a while since I had some major workout from these bacterias
White blood cells are regrouping, reinforced and ready to defend, or rather attack!

OMG I think these bacterias are eating up to my mind! SO LAME!

Wish me well!!

Aching!!

Stupid braces! and rubber bands! Made my teeth so painful! Couldn't even bite a plum!

OMG, can't even bite vegetables! Why so suffering??

Liverpool 0 Stroke City 0

How could this happen? What is this? How can Liverpool not win at Anfield?
The match was exciting but lack of that special moment of magic from any Liverpool player, which causes this goalless draw. However, Alonso, my favourite player did really well in middle, controlling the pace of the game and he got forward on numerous occasions. Keane had his chances but sad to say, not taken. So much to say for this draw! I was one happy guy last saturday but come this saturday, not very happy. =(

Training for today was all about match play. I played two matches. One was with my junior, the other was a senior. Beat the junior 21-16, 21-10, lost 19-21, 18-21 but I was happy with my attitude towards the game, even my coach praised me for that. Fight and force till the very end! Showing emotions on court shows how badly you want to win the game but not to the extent where it could affect ur game, you can get carried away by the emotions and lose focus on the game. I was satisfied as I could execute my BOONSAK half smash pretty well! =)

On another note, my coach finally got to know about the photo incident at Kuen Cheng 2.
He was ok and he understands my situation and lack of knowledge of that matter. Rich parents are just sensitive and afraid that some fella will kidnap their children. I was wrong for taking pictures without their consents but who knows? Can't i just take a picture because the kids are cute? Why are they so sensitive and kids are really good at saying things, some which wasn't even said can be twisted and turned by them into some words which seems valid! What is this?

Anyhow I owe no explanations to noone but my coach and he was ok, so I'm ok. This affected my doubles game with some uncles, arranged by my coach. Just couldn't focus and made mistakes. My partner, my bro was complaining and lecturing me while playing. LOL. He thinks he's hell of a great deal, hahaha.

Coaching today was all about match play and footwork only. Nothing special.

Back to tutorials and stuff! iissh!!

finally 1 last orthodental appointment!!

He said the next time i see him i will be able to remove my braces!!
Finally, after almost 5 years of metal pieces and rubber!

So glad it finally happened! He told me i can remove it since last year but he was reluctant cuz he was still not satisfied.

The distance between the upper and lower jaw teeth should be from 2 to 4 mm but mine is 5 mm. So a lil bit more of adjustments by wearing elastic rubber bands and im free! By December, I can officially smile with my mouth wide open to show the whole world my teeth! lol.

Btw, i'm now 71 kg! Haha. i was 74 a few weeks ago! wad happened to me?

All in a day's work!

-Slept at 6am to around 8am, finally.
-8am - 12pm continued to rush my essay
-rushed to monash to hand in
-rushed to sungai besi for coaching
-took a slow drive back to monash after filling up petrol
-badminton from 5 to 7
-BKT dinner which i'm not very fond of, just no appetite
-did not eat the whole day until dinner, only drank herbal drinks and coconut water
-Home, tired! exhausted!
-Bathed, finally, my bed!! =p

Amazon's Deadliest!

Oh My! Marketing Essay due on Friday and there I was watching Discovery Channel, National Geographic channel, etc, felt so productive! LOL.

The only facts I could recall from that 3 hours of productivity in front of the TV was

1. Bull Sharks are the only shark that can swim in salt and fresh water. Other sharks's cell will burst within hours if they are swimming in fresh waters.
2. Green Anaconda is Amazon's Deadliest Animal! No venom but jaws can open up to 180 degress!! Able to swallow a crocodile! wad more human!
3. That's all i could remember! ahaha

Struggle struggle, and yet, still beating around the bush, when will all these change?

How to regain focus?

Tired!!

Another Sunday morning! Training!!
We(bros and i) had mamak for breakfast with my coach before going back home just to fetch my youngest lazy bro.

Started off with 10 laps of jogging after some light warm up. 10 laps as in the length of 5 badminton courts!

Then right after, we had multi shuttle, 50 shuttles at one go, 4 times
OMG by the second time I was already mental down, seeing blue..lol

Followed by some light skills, spin netting both forehand and backhand side

Then match play 5 points rotation, winner stay.

As for coaching, my programme for the kids were

1. forehand and backhand lob
2. forehand and backhand net
3. combination of forehand net, forehand lob
4. combination of backhand net, backhand lob
5. match play wid me

After coaching, partnered me bro and thrashed the best UNCLEs in doubles..lol

Was dam tired and had an evening nap =p

Highlight of the day:

Both my parents were arguing over how to use excel, and i was the victim to correct them, as if I know excel that well. Both of them ended up complaining how stupid the 2007 excel is and my mom was laughing at my dad cuz he dun even knows how to save a file....

ahahahahhahaha

work work!! lots of work!

WOOOOoooo!!!

LIVERPOOL- 2(Brown OG, Babel 77') vs Man U -1(Tevez 3')

WE WON!!!!!

Man U couldn't even nullify the threats coming from the left wing of Liverpool. Riera is truly a rare breed! This number 11 is really good, and to be able to display such a performance on his debut, it's marvellous! He had a greater debut impact than Robbie Keane i must admit! Roaming and Bombarding down the left flank, beating defenders and getting crosses into the box, that's how Liverpool should be playing!! But credit to the entire team for the relentless attack and possession, which won us this deserving match!

Reina did well to save a superb volley by Scholes but the Tevez goal was just inevitable. No keeper could have saved that in fact. Reina did well defending corners, rushing out to punch the ball clear, so typical of him. Haha. Carra and Skrtel clicked really well in defence, both had chances to roam forward as well. Skrtel even tested Van der Sar for heaven sake! LOL.

Kuyt and Masc were real workaholics, not forgetting Benayoun. Alonso did well to hold the ball and control the defense, prompting every attack from midfield. Keane was okay, had his chances. Imagine if Torres came on! We would be banging in goals for fun! We deserved prolly a 3-1 scoreline but regardless, the win is the most important!

On the other note, Aurelio was a little nervy but come the second half, he was on fire! The entire Liverpool attack came from the left, with him and Riera. It was the same even after Babel replaced Riera! Babel was the Super Sub! Great cool blast slotting the ball into the net, sending the whole Anfield crowd and the Asia Cafe crowd crazy! AC's roof was about to burst!!ahaha we shouted out lungs out and the amount of Liverpool fans were phenomenal. So much of fun we had. All brought together with the passion for football and Liverpool. We were so random! High Five-ing and hugging Liverpool fans and friends! not that we really know them, but our passion brought ppl from all walks of life together!

I really had this great experience!

YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE

NO SLEEP TONIGHT!

assignments
= tired = fatigue
= mental down = cannot think
= malfunction = weak = heavy eyes
= lazy = sleepy = trying not to get sleepy
= coffee / tea = no effect = sleepy = lazy
= procrastinate = doing irrelevant stuff
= not focusing on assignments
= no sleep tonight!
= no energy the next day
= weaker
= frail
= fragile
= will be broken
= bodoh lah!!

OMG! centiiiipede!!

scarrryyyy....

DEAD!!

It's legs flew off into pieces!!

While it was still alive!

OMG! This is my first time seeing such a big centipede, as long as my palm, in length!

IT MOVES REALLY REALLY FAST!!!

Saw it at the ceiling of my kitchen this morning while preparing for uni..

It was so scary, even Shieldtox or wadever pesticides couldn't kill it, until my maid's slippers came to the rescue..

I didn't know that centipedes, or rather red centipedes are poisonous and it can kill us!

konbanwa!

Introducing, my teacher, friend, bro, counsellor, mentor...

Kevin Goh! =)







Ain't he cute? wanna guess how old is he? We went to guardian to buy his Listerine and while he was paying, i asked the cashier to guess how old are we. Guess wad? i'm 25 and he's 24! WTH??


Hahaha..was really funny...

But seriously, he played a part in shaping my life. He is an important figure, be it my mentor or more like a bro to me. I really do appreciate him and his efforts. Thank you!!

He was there when i needed someone and he was the one who really understands me, understands what am i going through and my feelings. He feels what i feels. He counselled and asked me so many blur questions and repeating it, twisting it, turning it, until i was blur. ahha. But it made me think alot in overcoming my problems, difficulties and my heartaches.

Thank u for spending ur time with me trying to help me. I'm his protege mah! =p although i'm rated as a 17/20 in terms of ESL by him, since he was my ESL teacher.


Thank U cher!

U r more than a friend and teacher to me.


p/s he is 28/29 while i'm only 19 k??

Last week in review... =(

Twas an unlucky last week for me, due to obvious reasons...

Mon-arguments

Tue-
was being accused of kidnapping, i was like wth. cuz i took pics of some of my cute students and ended up they went home and told their parents, filing a complain against me. Children are not that nice nowadays.

Wed-
almost got into an accident with an indian, really rough and scary guy. He confronted me. I didn't know wad i did wrongly, i drove very carefully but.... scare the hell out of me as we were rushing for class. However shabu shabu that night with MBBG was fun.

Thurs- marketing mid term assessment, 15 / 25, only a credit of 60%, then comes judgement day

Friday-
one day after judgement day, but really have to thank anna and vann for being there for me =) and listening to all my stuffs

Saturday-
Uncomfortable with our mutual friends as i was attending my friend's farewell party. she's leaving to Ireland

hope to have a better week after this!

1st

1st ever proper post!

Twas really a busy day accompanied by a sleepless night yesterday due to my cough. Not that i'm taking any initiatives to let it heal faster, instead i aggravated it even worst by drinking cold drinks =(

Against my will i woke up at approx 7.15am, after those countless alarms my bro purposely played right beside my ears just to buzz me awake. As i've badminton training on sundays, today was no exception, just that it was purely physical. Meaning no racquets required. How sad! Drove to my coach's house and we all left at 8. Reached Majlis Sukan Negara(MSN) a few mins later and we went scouting for one of my junior who waited at the wrong gate. Haha. We were all at the track and field gate while he was at the football stadium gate, it's normal, malaysian signboards are misleading! We called him and asked his whereabouts and he only answered, " woah! alot of ppl" cuz he was at the football stadium. We laughed a while before the serious training started!

OMG! 4 laps of sprinting, 400metres
1st attempt, target = below 1 min 35 seconds

I ran my lungs out for good! and i managed to clock at 1 min 23 seconds. Not bad, but my legs are aching and muscles are getting heavy and stiff after the first attempt. Even my hands are tired after trying to swing it too much while accelerating. 10 mins of rest.

2nd attempt, target = below 1 min 25 seconds!, distance = same

Once i began to run i couldn't really force anymore cuz my lungs felt like it's gonna burst! Clocked time = 1 min 36 seconds, disappointed =( and began to see stars...

3rd attempt, target = below 1 min 35 sec, same distance

If i fail to finish below the targeted time, another lap of sprinting! Wanna guess my clocked time?
1 min 45 seconds! GONE! but my coach felt that i really had push myself beyond my limit so he excused the 4th and additional lap! Luckily for his decision, for i was gasping for oxygen like crazy, felt like vomiting, muscles already stiff and butt cramp! LOL. Lucky me! One of my training mate even vomited his gaster juice! ew!

We headed for bfast, got my pay and went home. Lunch at some Crown Princess Hotel, kinda run down but your head can really spin cuz i had to drive up to the 9th floor for parking! and we were lost a couple of times thanks to my mom. Women really have bad direction senses =p
We dropped by at grandma's place before heading home.

Dinner tonight was cooked by mom. Horrible. Her ingredients for her mee was garlic, garlic and even more garlic! And her ABC soup was tasteless! YET she was so proud when she said "I didn't add any salt into the soup you know?"LOL. Not a satisfying dinner though.

So much for now as i've lots to do, marketing tutorial submission, law and accounts tutorial work! I'm so dead!

Signing off!

(2nd day)

The first drop of Ink

The sun will rise, and it will fall
As the tides rises, it can be high, it could have been low either.
When something goes up, remember,
Something on the other hand will go down.
What comes around, goes around.
If there isn't an existence of you,
Where will i be?
Who will be the man whom i look into the mirror everyday?

Earth is made up of many things,
Just like a puzzle.
My life is just nothing but a puzzle.
Are you the puzzle to my life?
Are you the one who will complete me?
Are you the final piece of the puzzle?
The puzzles of my life
Are made out of love,
Consisting of flavours in life
Am i neglecting the sweetness of love,
Or am i cherishing the bitterness of love?
So i try to hold onto a time when nothing really matters
But is time fading upon me?
Hanging by a thread,
Do i start this all over again?
Do i try to let things go?
Or do i just believe?

I'm not a perfect person,
I never meant to hurt you,
Never meant to lose hope and faith.
But there are adversities upon one's road,
Which one will have to overcome and face.
This road is a part of life which one will have to
Walk alone, facing fears and taking fortitude
To complete the journey, which
Is all about choices and decisions.
By then when it's all said and done,
That's when the emptiness in you
Turns into a purposeful meaning to you.
That will be the time where you will attain
The courage and responsibility,
To truly love someone, unconditionally,
Without fearing you might hurt them
For you've learnt to fly by yourself
As you'll be stronger with each failed attempt,
You'll love confidently.

But at the end of it all,
You will realise that
Going through all the hardship alone,
You not only complete the puzzles of your life,
You complete people's puzzle of life too,
For they are only waiting for their final piece,
Which is you.