Easier to run by myself?

What do i do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my insticts blindly?
Or do I follow the norms boldly?

Do I hide my pride from these negativity?
Do I lose myself in these bad dreams?
And give in to sadly sorrow thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I stand up and do something about it?
DO I make the right moves that I'm lost within?
Or DO I find myself within my wrong moves?

I can’t hold on watching everything spin,
With thoughts of failure sinking in,
I just end up getting hurt again,
By myself ?

So would it be easier to run?
Replacing this pain with something numb?
Would it be so much easier to leave?
Than face all this pain here all alone,
By myself ?

Running only gets me further away from myself,
Replacing doesn't stop the rot,
Doesn't put the bad haunting dreams to a halt,
Leaving only places my pride in deeper negativity.

So If I could change I would,
Take back the pain I would,
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would,
If I could stand up and take the blame I would,
If I could take all the shame I would,
Turn it into lessons not to be forgotten I would,
Take time to realise I would again,
Retrace one wrong choice that I made I would,
Turn it into morals to be remembered,
By Myself !

Happy Belated 20th!

Due to my hectic schedules of assignments, participation in clubs and societies, I finally found some time to reflect on 7th March 2009, or the few days around it.



















Airmaster Bodykit & Tinting = RM 1600
A big thank you to all my family members including myself! ( cuz i paid almost half of the amount !! =.= )





This Liverpool European Away Jersey( although they were knocked out by Chelsea yday ) was from my friends! Mostly due to MY VAST SOCIAL NETWORK! =p So thanks everybody and thank myself for making the initiative to ask them to buy for me! >.< Special thanks to AJ for attempting to collect the cash cuz i am well aware of the scope of my large social network!! =P


To one of the first ones who handed me this, thank you! Notice how big this shirt is?? FYI, I'm getting slimmer by the day! =P





And LAST BUT NOT LEAST!! From my beloved, my Liverpool towel!! The one that I'm using now has been used since 2002 till now! This is something new! Thanks jas! =)