That was the amount spent on a particular Monday last week or so. Besides, it was spent in a mere 15 minutes! I realised that spending money is like drinking water, it's really quick! Even "The Pursuit of Happyness" couldn't stop me from that shopping spree. In fact, I wouldn't even consider that as a shopping spree. It was more of a random thing which come to think of it now, it was really a pretty dunderhead of me to be even having those thoughts! I cannot compare my spending patterns and habits to women because men are from Mars. We are different and to be able for me to spend like a woman, that's unacceptable as there were no solid grounds for me to reason that behaviour of mine, which came so, so randomly.
The only reason or excuse that I could possibly think of is marketing as my main major. I have to market myself. I have to be marketable. I need the impression. Anyhow, the main issue here after so much of bullcrap is, I'm BROKE with 1.5 weeks left till the end of the month. Great.
Liverbird on my chest
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
WOAH!!
Keeper jersey
Xabi Alonso =)
IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!
THE NEW LIVERPOOL AWAY JERSEY 09/10!!!
IT'S DAM NICE!!!!!!
CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO BE SOLD IN MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
If your birthday is the lovely kind,
That blossoms from the start,
With beautiful and wished for joys,
That leave a happy heart
If just some of the special things,
You're always glad to do,
Return to touch the hours
With special happiness for you
If all the wishes you receive come true in gentle ways,
Then yours will be the brightest and most magical of days
These birthday wishes come with warm affection and special love for you
from Jas
That blossoms from the start,
With beautiful and wished for joys,
That leave a happy heart
If just some of the special things,
You're always glad to do,
Return to touch the hours
With special happiness for you
If all the wishes you receive come true in gentle ways,
Then yours will be the brightest and most magical of days
These birthday wishes come with warm affection and special love for you
from Jas
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Un-answer-able?
I believe that some things cannot be answered, only to be questioned. Some things are claimed, proclaimed, some are scientifically proven, some are myths, some are meant to be proven, some are just gimmicks, some are just there for the taking, and some are there to make a fortune. Some are just un-answer-able despite numerous attempts trying to solve the puzzle by either manipulating ourselves to believe that there is an answer to the question or trying to find the best possible reason for the happening and hold on to that belief as long as possible. For all we know, the truth might not be out there or maybe, it is really out there?
Time is an essential factor in determining the truth of something. Try asking a kid or even young teens like us about dealing with death? That is not even our time to even think about it, or even seek the truth of after-life/after-death. What about those who are ready for it? Those whose time is up and riped awaiting for the moment of truth, the doubts surrounding his/her entire life?
Allow me to tell a story of a noble lady. A lady who took care of 7 children despite the fact that they are not even from her womb. My mom was one of the 7. Due to the difficulties in business and adversities trying to make ends meet for their 7 children, my grandparents were often out for business. Which explains why all 7 of my aunts and uncles including my mom are so attached to this lady whom were their caretaker even until present. A lady who sacrificed her life for the sake of these 7 children, thus unmarried but her sacrifices were worthwhile as she gained 7 children whom treated her with love and care as though she was their mother.
My mother was especially attached to her because theoretically based on an oral contract(those were the days), my grandparents gave my mom away to her. The main factor would be financial instability (my mom is the 3rd child) and the other minor factor would be how disobedient, naugthy she was and the poor relationship between my grandpa and my mom. So there the lady was joyous and happy that a maidenhead like her could be gifted a child. However, oral contracts were so popular to be true those days and given the fact that no parent will give up on their flesh and blood, the contract did not BIND, or rather, my grandparents rescinded it. Why? Simple. What happens if a liability(disobedient, naughty, poor relationship) turns out to be an asset(prettiest and most decent among 4 daughters which attracts guys from a RICH family)? You tell me.
So can any reasonable person behold the lady's pain? She was so hopeful in bringing up this child and for all she knows, its all lies and false hope but what can she do? Does voicing up aid her pain? Regardless, mom says it's okay. What matter most is the heart, the thought and actions to care for her. As mom's offsprings, we were brought up by her to love, respect and learn from this lady. This lady is supposedly our grandma, a role model to everyone. Her sacrifices are sometimes taken for granted but not my mom, not us.
Recently she got really ill. At the age of 80 plus she's still a lady with a strong will although parts of her body are failing her. Hence I had more frequent visits to talk to her, see her, listen to her and eat just about every hour! Just to make the old lady happy when she sees us eat. Despite all these, she's still sad and I was always there listening to her. I am very helpless, I don't know what to say or answer when she just struck me with some questions.
"Ken, what do you normally do at home when u guys are not playing sports or when u r free? Watch Tv? Haihz. I barely watch Tv now because of my poor vision. I can't even read the newspaper. I can only sit and listen to some classic golden oldies song. It's boring sitting on the sofa everyday."
"Ken, my legs are failing me. They are always numb and I can't even walk properly without the help of maid or u guys. I'm afraid that I will be paralysed. Will I? Then I would have caused alot of problems to everyone."
(after a telephone conversation) "Huh? A and B are gone already(dead/deceased)? So fast? They were in the old folks home for 4 years already. I thought they were quite healthy. One by one they are going to the grave"
"Ken, why don't u go eat? I don't feel like eating. I have no appetite and no more teeth to even bite. Go eat. I'm happy when u all eat."
"Ken, who is that ...? Erm, that's..?Ah pei's mom, what's her name again? Haihz, even my memory is failing me."
"Ken, I'm feeling weaker by the day. Is my time up ready? Is it time?"
I was speechless. It's un-answer-able. All I could answer was " You are very healthy, don't think of unnecessary things." What else am I supposed to say? How should I answer? My only expression to her was only smiling and asking her other questions trying to change the topic. She would just stone and look at me stationarily before starting an entire different conversation.
We are all prepared for the worst. Those whom are not in her shoes will never understand what she'll bound to be experiencing. No one will really feel for her evnthough they will try to talk to her as much as possible trying to persuade her like a child and then? Buy her the things that she likes or her favourite singer's album? And then? And then what? These are all physical materials. She may appear happy with the company of a band of kids but when she's all alone, the fact will slowly creep into her thoughts. To say that she's prepared for death is mere puffery. It's something all of us fear when we are so close to it. We all can start preparing to face death now? By then we will be well prepared? When we are so close to it, the un-answer-able questions will come into play, again. What will happen? How? Where? When? Who?
Although I can put myself in her shoes, I can never find out the answers. I do not know what to expect, neither does she. All I can do is to enjoy the last bits and pieces of memories with her so that she will remain part of my memory. Her teachings, her blessings and her words of wisdom will always be with me whereever I go, just like Ah Mah(dad's mom). Although Ah Mah is no longer here, it's been 3 years, she is still fresh in my memory and I really really missed her. She brought me up since the day I was born. I will be prepared no matter what happens. Just like Ah Mah, the lady will be an inspiration for me as I look up to them. I will cherish the moments with her now as much as I can and when she's up there with Ah Mah, she'll have a place in my heart too.
GOD BLESS
Time is an essential factor in determining the truth of something. Try asking a kid or even young teens like us about dealing with death? That is not even our time to even think about it, or even seek the truth of after-life/after-death. What about those who are ready for it? Those whose time is up and riped awaiting for the moment of truth, the doubts surrounding his/her entire life?
Allow me to tell a story of a noble lady. A lady who took care of 7 children despite the fact that they are not even from her womb. My mom was one of the 7. Due to the difficulties in business and adversities trying to make ends meet for their 7 children, my grandparents were often out for business. Which explains why all 7 of my aunts and uncles including my mom are so attached to this lady whom were their caretaker even until present. A lady who sacrificed her life for the sake of these 7 children, thus unmarried but her sacrifices were worthwhile as she gained 7 children whom treated her with love and care as though she was their mother.
My mother was especially attached to her because theoretically based on an oral contract(those were the days), my grandparents gave my mom away to her. The main factor would be financial instability (my mom is the 3rd child) and the other minor factor would be how disobedient, naugthy she was and the poor relationship between my grandpa and my mom. So there the lady was joyous and happy that a maidenhead like her could be gifted a child. However, oral contracts were so popular to be true those days and given the fact that no parent will give up on their flesh and blood, the contract did not BIND, or rather, my grandparents rescinded it. Why? Simple. What happens if a liability(disobedient, naughty, poor relationship) turns out to be an asset(prettiest and most decent among 4 daughters which attracts guys from a RICH family)? You tell me.
So can any reasonable person behold the lady's pain? She was so hopeful in bringing up this child and for all she knows, its all lies and false hope but what can she do? Does voicing up aid her pain? Regardless, mom says it's okay. What matter most is the heart, the thought and actions to care for her. As mom's offsprings, we were brought up by her to love, respect and learn from this lady. This lady is supposedly our grandma, a role model to everyone. Her sacrifices are sometimes taken for granted but not my mom, not us.
Recently she got really ill. At the age of 80 plus she's still a lady with a strong will although parts of her body are failing her. Hence I had more frequent visits to talk to her, see her, listen to her and eat just about every hour! Just to make the old lady happy when she sees us eat. Despite all these, she's still sad and I was always there listening to her. I am very helpless, I don't know what to say or answer when she just struck me with some questions.
"Ken, what do you normally do at home when u guys are not playing sports or when u r free? Watch Tv? Haihz. I barely watch Tv now because of my poor vision. I can't even read the newspaper. I can only sit and listen to some classic golden oldies song. It's boring sitting on the sofa everyday."
"Ken, my legs are failing me. They are always numb and I can't even walk properly without the help of maid or u guys. I'm afraid that I will be paralysed. Will I? Then I would have caused alot of problems to everyone."
(after a telephone conversation) "Huh? A and B are gone already(dead/deceased)? So fast? They were in the old folks home for 4 years already. I thought they were quite healthy. One by one they are going to the grave"
"Ken, why don't u go eat? I don't feel like eating. I have no appetite and no more teeth to even bite. Go eat. I'm happy when u all eat."
"Ken, who is that ...? Erm, that's..?Ah pei's mom, what's her name again? Haihz, even my memory is failing me."
"Ken, I'm feeling weaker by the day. Is my time up ready? Is it time?"
I was speechless. It's un-answer-able. All I could answer was " You are very healthy, don't think of unnecessary things." What else am I supposed to say? How should I answer? My only expression to her was only smiling and asking her other questions trying to change the topic. She would just stone and look at me stationarily before starting an entire different conversation.
We are all prepared for the worst. Those whom are not in her shoes will never understand what she'll bound to be experiencing. No one will really feel for her evnthough they will try to talk to her as much as possible trying to persuade her like a child and then? Buy her the things that she likes or her favourite singer's album? And then? And then what? These are all physical materials. She may appear happy with the company of a band of kids but when she's all alone, the fact will slowly creep into her thoughts. To say that she's prepared for death is mere puffery. It's something all of us fear when we are so close to it. We all can start preparing to face death now? By then we will be well prepared? When we are so close to it, the un-answer-able questions will come into play, again. What will happen? How? Where? When? Who?
Although I can put myself in her shoes, I can never find out the answers. I do not know what to expect, neither does she. All I can do is to enjoy the last bits and pieces of memories with her so that she will remain part of my memory. Her teachings, her blessings and her words of wisdom will always be with me whereever I go, just like Ah Mah(dad's mom). Although Ah Mah is no longer here, it's been 3 years, she is still fresh in my memory and I really really missed her. She brought me up since the day I was born. I will be prepared no matter what happens. Just like Ah Mah, the lady will be an inspiration for me as I look up to them. I will cherish the moments with her now as much as I can and when she's up there with Ah Mah, she'll have a place in my heart too.
GOD BLESS
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