If you ever get to read whatever I wrote, you would have a feel of what's ahead of you even before you know it. Your grandpa used to tell me things way ahead of me, the only difference is that whatever he told me are all kept in my head, whereas I am trying to document every single bits, fragments and pieces of memories/happenings/advice/especially feelings. So then when we look back, we will notice how much life has evolved, and we cannot let culture and tradition just die off with the technological advancements. Hence I'm leveraging on technology to preserve as much as I can so that someday, someone will feel me, understand me and get to know me better even when I'm gone (provided if this blogspot thingy still exist of course).
Every year end, people will be coming up with a list of their hits and misses for their current resolution for the year, and then prepare a brand new (or repeated) resolution for the following year. It's funny how people can just come up with certain unattainable resolutions and it's nice to see people making simple and yet meaningful resolutions. However one thing that doesn't make any sense to me is that why tell the whole world? I thought resolutions and wishes are meant to be private or at least made known only to people who are close/significant to us? It's hilarious to see how ambitious some people are, judging by their resolution list posted on FB. I mean, come on, you wanna open another company, you wanna have a RM500k net worth, you can just keep it to yourself. Somehow I just dont get it, do you? I hope your generation would not turn out to be like that (or probably it will with some resolution application on your super smart phone)
I dont care what resolutions people make or how they wanna inform the world about it, but as long as it is a meaningful one, it's fine.
This year is a different year for me. I will face a lot of challenges in every aspect of my life (drama a bit but its not). My only resolution for the year is to be HAPPY. And if I can choose, I would love to be HAPPIER.
My definition of HAPPY does not mean :
I wanna lead a carefree life
I wanna get rich
I wanna do whatever I want
I wanna have financial freedom
I wanna just chill
It means :
"I wanna have control over my own life". Now is the time to take control and make decisions. Time passed so fast since I passed quarter-life and I must admit that I'm still in the midst of the crisis, who isn't?
I want to have control over my debts and commitments. You can be debt-free, but we cannot runaway from commitments cuz that shows our growth and responsibilities. Right now, I'm trying hard to work to be debt-free, the latter will come eventually by stages.
I want to have control over my career because we will spend the next 30 years working. Work will actually eat up so much of your life that probably at the end of it all, you don't even realize time has gone past you and you cant turn back time. If you are not happy working, there will be unhappiness for 30 years! Unless, you can integrate life/passion/money/happiness/career all-in-one, we will struggle to differentiate our emotions, we will be numb and bitter towards life because life will eventually = career. I just want to wake up everyday and feel like it's the same DAY. No Moody Monday Blues, No FlyDay, everyday is the same. If I ever achieve that, I will write a book on my success story, LOL
All in all, I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. My resolution for every single new year is to be HAPPIER than the previous year.
Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.
