Hot N Cold

Cuz you're Hot and you're Cold,
You're In and you're Out,
You're Up and you're Down,
You're Wrong when it's Right,
It's Black when it's White,
You Stand when I Sit,
You Laugh when I Cry,
You Run while I Walk,
You Drink while I Eat,
You Kick when I Punch,
You Think when I Dream,
You Smile while I Frown,
You Squat while I Jump,
You Scream while I Whisper,
You're Young while I'm Old,
You're Serious while I'm Chilled,
You're Cute while I'm Not,
You're Smart while I'm Ngog,
You're Everything while I'm Nothing,
You Cook I'll Eat,
You Talk I'll Shut...

Stealth Mode & Happy New Year '09

Stealth Modes/Emo Modes are just part and parcel of my life. Occassionally, rarely, frequently? It's hard to say and hard to judge but not many matters/issues would dump me into this state of my imbalance lifestyle of deprived sleep, and hectic schedule. Once I'm on this mode, it's hard to get me off the track. How I wonder if I can adopt this attitude when it comes to studying? Staying focus and always on track, not procrastinating a single bit. However, let's face it, we are all nothing but humans.

Anyway, Happy '09! A new year begins with arguements, loads of work and mismatches of everything I do. Great! Nevertheless, I will remain positive. Negativity seems to be creeping closer and eventually taking over my life! Not that I want it but I have escaped from it and certainly hoping not to let it take control of my life, again!

A Mistake May Be The One Thing Necessary To A Worthwhile Achievement

Dad

Dreams II

• Fetched both of Jas's sisters while she was driving with her mom as we headed for dinner at some place. I remember overtaking her car and laughing at her. LOL
• And for the first time, her family members appeared in my dreams and for the first time her dad(deceased) appeared as well.
• I parked my car quite far away from some restaurant. And her dad asked me why parked so far and then realised I wasn't some member who can bribe those JPA people to park right in front of the restaurant. (That's very lame)
• Her dad's colleagues and workers were present too.
• Then for all I know, I was in some room in an airport, filling up forms after forms before departure. I only notice non-Malaysians walking in and out of that room. I think I was with friends, nothing to do with Jas.
• I was off to Slovakia/Slovenia
• WTH???

Very weird! Twice! Two nights in a row!! Why is this happening to me? Is it an indication? I really don't know...

Dreams

Trying to recall everything as I would have slowly forgotten the dreams one by one. The funny thing is, I dreamt about Jas the whole night only to know that she too dreamt of me the moment I checked my phone once I was awake. Wonder if we had the same dreams? So without further hesitation before my memories fail me, here goes...

• We entered a biology room somewhere in Monash, and together we saw piles of toad's brains, intestines, livers, hearts, etc all separated/removed from their body and placed categorised-ly on some big table. Ew! and I can still feel the scent coming from that room! I don't know why in the blue hell my smelling senses could work eventhough it is a dream! Seeing, listening and feeling will be present, no doubt but smell? Call me weird! Seriously I've no idea!
• After the room, we were supposed to cross a bridge over to some park that looks like Bukit Jalil park! Sunway and Bukit Jalil connected by a bridge! Joke of the day! Please just bear with me =) Anyway, while I was about to go downstairs to cross the road over to the other side, Jas stopped me and said " Doink! up here! there's a bridge we can use to get across faster!". She opened this labelless door and there's a bridge! Not sure it's indoor or outdoor bridge though, =P
• After we crossed, we walked along some path looking at sceneries before we got into the car, meaning we parked the car at Bukit Jalil and cross the bridge to get to Monash -_- Soon we saw a bunch of people like somewhat running away from something! TRUE enough they were running away, from MONKS! LOL. You know, those CONMEN MONKS who CON everyone they see? And they were very near our car so we rushed into our car surrounded by them, got in fast, locked and drove off!!! HAHA!!

That's all I could recall throughout the entire 9 hours of sleep. LOL. If it's not for my bro who woke me up, I would have continued my dream! HAHA! I was listening to I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith and it totally reminded me of Jas(Miss ya!=p) and Blades of Glory!! Damn funny and Gay movie!!

"Hand in Hand, Heart to Heart, My Love for You, Shall Never Part"

I will always keep this piece of heart-shaped paper of love, given and written by Jas quite some time ago, in my wallet, also given by Jas. =p

So much for now! I have to go brush! LOL. You see, I just got up and here I am hogging my laptop =p

So Much, Too Much

Well, I can start by saying that I used to shave in 20 seconds but yesterday I took 2000 seconds simply because I didn't shave for 2 weeks. Trouble-free and laziness after the exams are the sole reason why I was reluctant to shave, only to the point where my mom, dad, aunt got pissed off with my 'janggut'. My hair is considered long according to mom, who also got pissed off with my hair. I can practically 'fing tao' like a dog to dry my hair after bathing. My nails are getting on my nerves and my mom's too but I'm just plain lazy. Not to mention, my table, car and books are all in a mess! A very untidy me indeed. -_-

By the way, I HAVE to put on my RM200 glasses when I drive at night, when I'm using the PC and when I'm watching the TV. So Pathetic! But what can I do? I don't want my asthmatism to get from bad to worse. And sad to say, due to some memory card error, I was unable to load pictures into my computer. So some ideas, thoughts, and pictures(of me in specs for the first time in history) will be uploaded another time.

I had torn my hamstring(muscle at the back of leg), according to my coach. The agonising pain around that area lasted for 1 week after some footwork training the week before.I couldn't even sleep and sit in peace because the muscle is situation near my butt. LOL. I had to put ice on it, hoping that it would heal faster but as I felt better, I got another injury. This time it's the front thigh muscle due to futsal. The back muscle was set for recovery and now the front muscle is injured. Both on my right leg. The futsal game was rough as we played Selangor state players, and I was only playing for my bro's team, no where near my team! However so, I still had my training with Nicholas, my most formidable badminton partner so far. We trained doubles stuffs for a competition but we pulled out because there are just too many state players and sports school players plus the venue is in Klang. Training was fun and we will continue to improve the partnership as there'll be other competitions available before he flys off to Australia.

On another note, Jas and I are back on terms, only to know that she'll be flying off to Australia next year. I do not know how to describe my feelings but I'm looking at the positive side of things. We're doing the best for each another, I'm not trying to think too much. Hopefully things will work out smoothly and in no time, I will join her there. I'm only worried for her. Worried about her safety, friends, the people, the society, accomodation, laundry, food and so much more but I know she can cope with it, she's independant when needed to =) I feel as though as I'm treating her like my daughter =p

I should just appreciate time, don't worry and be happy =)

As Busy As A B

I finally wrote the letter on Thursday. It's all fated. We were having a small badminton session amongst secondary, which is not my main intention, even so, it was no sweat at all =p. All fated as there was an opportunity for me to execute my plan. (Not the right time to elaborate).

Home, dinner and while i was dozing at the sofa, Melissa called, asking me to join them for yum cha session. I wanted too but it was already 9.30pm. Fearing rejection, i asked my parents. Miraculously, they allowed me to , probably it was due to my bro's UPSR results so they were in the mood. So off I went! Once I reached the so-called Old KFC building, I went find them on the fifth floor where the badminton courts are situated. Feeling reluctant but very dissatisfied with my previous badminton session, i put on my FUTSAL shoes (LOL) as I've no intention of playing or whatsoever (so I left my badminton shoes at home), took two racquets from my car and see me fly! My partnership with Nicholas was just undeniably great, perfect understanding and fun. We can get the job done and yet enjoy a whole lot out of it. Too bad Wirhan's partner (Mr Cool) wasn't around, if not we would have challenged them since the both of them are Monash's No 1 doubles. Sad to say, Wirhan is getting his ass back to Indon for 4 months so by the time he's back, Nicholas will be off to Australia. No fate, no determination of the better pair. =(

We had so much fun , maybe cuz of my presence(LOL). Atmosphere is different and it's surely different without the power house, ME! =p Nic and I shouted, yelled more than we play. LOL. I ended the day with a yum cha session. I got to know that Melissa, despite her tall and tough stature, IS AFRAID OF COCKROACHES!! LOL! She was yelling her way back to the car accompanied by millions of cockroaches by the roadside!

As I was awaken by my hp alarm, I knew that Friday would be yet another busy day for me, working as a DRIVER! It was my bro(Eugene)'s 16th Bday so he decided to celebrate it in Mid Valley. Kingston followed too as he will be having a 5 day break from his SPM, searching for his coat for prom. Fetched both and their friends. I wasn't used to bathing so early but that's the only way to keep myself awake. Once we were there, off they went by themselves, ditching me alone. All they said were, " Bro we go walk ourselves la, you go on your own la". But for the badminton gang, I would have been alone for the entire 7 hours in Midvalley. =)

Walked, walked and walked. Managed to get my badminton student a present though after deciding what to get for her since she's only 15 and a little boyish. Ate at Kim Gary. Wasn't pleasant because the food is so hot(panas) even 30 mins after being served to me !! -_-
Went home at 5pm, fetched some of Eugene's friends home, went collect my mom's spectacles and checked my eye too. Bad news! I'm having asthmatism(if it's spelled like that). Worse among my siblings. 50 and 75. In short I will need to put on my specs when I'm using the PC and while I'm driving at night! SAD!! Went mamak, The Store to get PC stuff and then finally home. Dinner, Tv and cake!

So much for the day! Now I'm off to try out Red Alert 3! =)