If only we believed. All things are possible. If only we trusted- there is goodness waiting for us. That miracles do happen, that love surrounds you, that beauty is created for you. Belief is everything. What you believe determines your action. And your actions determine the results you create in your life. Start with your beliefs. They are everything.
To believe is to know that every day
is a new beginning.
It is to trust that miracles happen,
and dreams really do come true.
To believe is to see angels dancing among the clouds,
To know the wonder of a stardust sky
and the wisdom of the man in the moon.
To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart,
The innocence of a child's eyes
and the beauty of an aging hand,
for it is through their teachings we learn to love.
To believe is to find the strength
and courage that lies within us.
When it is time to pick up the pieces and begin again.
To believe is to know we are not alone,
That life is a gift and this is our time to cherish it.
This feeling seems all so familiar to me that I ACTUALLY MISS IT! I MISS EXAMS, I MISS THE STUDY STRESS, I MISS THE THINGS I DO IN UNI, I MISS THE PEOPLE IN UNI. Now I understand why most people say UNI is the best time of one's life, besides the stress of exams. The people we meet, the bond we created, the lives we can touch is simply great, come to think of it. I rather have exams stress than WORK stress because WORK can really bring you DOWN DOWN DOWN!! Most importantly, the people we meet in the course of our education is VERY much different from the people we come across in the outside world ( that is if we assume UNI as our comfort zone )
I'D RATHER HAVE EXAMS STRESS THAN WORK STRESS!!! =(
Now when I really have some time to sit down at home NOT doing anything, it felt weird. Maybe because home is just like a place for me to sleep/regenerate/heal/wtv you name it while waiting for the next day to arrive. It got me thinking how much of time I actually spend at home? Now that I have the time to spend at home, I don't know what to do with it! Is my life already drifting away from home and being replaced by work? Maybe it's the nature of the work that I dislike which induced such feelings. Home = SLEEP???
Anyhow, when we were in UNI, if we ever ( most of the time ) wake up late/oversleep, we can actually have a choice of skipping lectures/tutorials, but when we are working, no matter how reluctant we are, we have to get our asses up. Choice is never an option to begin with. Somehow or rather, I miss these feelings associated to Uni. Or maybe I just miss being LAZY =P
I wished I could have cherished my uni days more, made the best out of it. I wished I bump into more people and kept friends like how children keep sweets in their pockets. I wished I put in more effort for everything I did but I am happy and proud that UNI felt like my second home where there's a sense of belonging, with all the nice and not so nice people around. Now when I think of certain not so nice people I met in uni, they are nothing compared to the people I meet outside! In uni, we can meet really nice people/friends who believes in sharing is caring, ie assignments. Outside, it's a world of survival of the fittest. In uni, we learn from our mistakes but outside, we cannot AFFORD mistakes! Harsh, but it's the fact.
Where am I heading towards? Maybe I should take up a masters/PHD and stay in UNI! LOL! Certainly in the comfort zone but reflective of myself? Nah... TIME to MAN-UP, STEP IN to the real WORLD. There must be self-belief and mental strength in other to cope with this huge transition but once we get through this transition, we will be on a one way ticket ride all the way to RETIREMENT! For now, I HATE MONDAYS!!!! I WILL STILL!!!
The moment it was revealed, I couldn't help but to pre-order it immediately! Touch of class! I wear my pride!
10/11 vs 11/12 AWAY JERSEY
Some prefer last season's jersey and some prefer the latter. Some prefer white, some prefer black. I SAY I HAVE BOTH!!! =) we are flourishing under King Kenny so let's hope we'll get the fifth spot, continue the spirit and fight for the premier league title next season!!! YNWA!!
1) You wished the weekends come faster and then on Sunday wished Monday DEAD
2) All of a sudden you need to sleep early because you cannot NAP in your 10 hours of work
3) You see so many people sleeping in the LRT
4) You see the guy that sat next to you staring at his Specialist Mathematics questions as though he is doing some mental calculations and ended up closing the bloody book/continue staring the questions
5) You see people rushing in to the LRT for seats and WILL not offer their seats to those who need it more
6) You keep drinking water so that you have an excuse to go REFILL water and to PEE
7) You HOPED that lunch time was around the corner but when you look at your watch, it says 10.30AM
8) Your BOSSES construct their sentences with such profanity that FUCK seems to sound just like a "lah"
9) Your working contract say you can leave at 5.30pm but NO ONE leaves the office BEFORE 6.30/7pm
10) COFFEE and CHOC seems to be your best friend to keep yourself awake after a heavy lunch
11) You look around the department and see many "mental down" faces esp on MONDAYS
12) Your colleagues gossip about scandals, backstabbing happily macam no work
13) THERE IS NO INTERNET ACCESS in the office!!!
14) You have no choice but to neglect friends, family and special ones
15) You will constantly tell yourself to ABSORB just like a sponge and FORGET about being UNDERPAID
When life gives you lemons, you make lemonade? Is this old but famous adage as simple as we think it is? Life was and never will be as simple as that. This phrase is said by some to show optimism , but to what extent? If you are given lemons, WILL you make lemonade? DO you make lemonade because you WANT to make lemonade, OR because you NEED to make lemonade? Is there a choice? Since life is all about choices, WILL you still make lemonade IF there is a choice?
What if you are SO certain that you are going to make lemonade but you are NOT given lemons? Are we destined to make lemonade IF we are given lemons? Yes? No? Are we contented with lemons?
What if some of us want more than lemons, say apples or oranges? Life gives you lemons, but you want orange juice? Throw them in the face of the person who gave you the lemons until they give you the oranges you originally asked for?
What if you really really want to make lemonade, you grow a lemon tree but it produces apple instead? To be simple minded maybe when life gives you lemons, just shut up and eat the damn lemons? Period.
Well, by the time you are done thinking of what to do with the lemons, the lemons would have been very bitter and even fermented. Maybe another lesson that we can learn from this phrase is to not take too much of time to hesitate? In a consistent comparison to "procrastinator is the thief of time", this phrase also implies that one's procrastination/hesitation might just cost a life-altering decision, and TIME as well.
However, we are all human beings and what differentiates us most from animals is the fact that humans have feelings/emotions, which can lead to a positive or negative outcome, and it entirely lies in our own hands to make a decision. This phrase very much reflects a feeling of dilemma because we'll be doing a lot of thinking, more thinking and even more thinking : "hhmm.. what to do with this lemon ah?"
While some people never regret their decisions, some would just stop for a moment while squeezing the lemon and think : "Hey, what if the lemons are too sour?" or "Where to get sugar?" or "Hey buddy, mind selling me your cup of lemonade?". I mean, what is the point of pondering/thinking too much when you know how unpredictable and random life is? Have some courage, make a decision, and never look back because you have already chosen.
As much optimism as this phrase can reflect, there are always still a lot of factors of consideration that determines the outcome of the lemons given to you. So will you do something about about the given lemons or are you going to ponder about it and regret if the lemons turn bitter due to the amount of time you took to think? You decide.
As for him, he has already chosen NOT to make lemonade. Instead, he conned everyone by using lime and buried the lemons deep down the ground. He has the courage to choose and he is living with no regrets. *salutes*
Have you ever felt an itchy sensation at a particular part of your body and when u reach out to scratch it, you realized that it doesn't cure the itch? Felt as though as the itch stemmed from another spot of your body, or somewhere else? And the funny thing is, you'll go round scratching everywhere in hopes of finding the right spot that will cure the original itch? You'll do all sorts of funny things to identify where the itch comes from or maybe try as many methods as possible (trial and error method) to cure this itch. Scrubbing your feet against the carpet, messing up your already messed up hair, scratching and poking your toes and fingers, these are just the very few things that one would resort to doing just to look for the source of the itch. Am I weird for feeling this way? It has been past 30 minutes and here I am still looking for a cure for the itch. HELP ME!!
btw, I finally found the spot! after another 5 minutes of itch searching
of a new chapter in life ? With just a day or two left before I know whether I am officially a graduate or not, I took some time to reflect on this long journey that got me to this point of time where I have another massive-life-changing-career-altering-decision to make. The ever-so-looming questions that gives me the chills down my spine are : Where do I go from here? What should i do now? Trust me, these two questions are enough to create a feeling of "a school of insecure fishes being forced to swim with the waves towards the ocean of uncertainties"
Now I truly understand why am I feeling a sense of attachment towards this institution that has failed me not once, not twice but three times, and yet is my only guarantee to a better life ahead. Simply put, am I just not ready to face the harsh reality? The decisions made throughout the stages of my life were very much governed by the influence of other parties but this time round, for the second time in my life, I have to make decisions without any other influences and without having any idea of the risks and ambiguities ahead of me, or rather (to show some optimism), the opportunities that lies ahead of this unforeseeable route.
Regardless, I know that the forces of aura that surrounds me will ensure that I will not walk this string of journey alone, and this force is strong enough to contain the aura in the form of a cyclical motion so that it will go round and round, in never-ending circles. This aura is not something that I chose, but at the same time, something that I don't want to lose. It came from no where and now giving meaning to every step that I am taking, including all the future undertakings. I don't know what the future brings but I know the aura will be so lost within me that it won't find a way out, and with that I know I can securely make it through, and believing that I can make everything okay.
When I walk through a storm, I will hold my head up high. I won't be afraid of the dark because at the end of a storm there will be a golden sky and the sweet silver song of a lark. I will walk on through the wind, walk on through the rain, though my dreams be tossed and blown. I will walk on, WITH A HOPE , in my heart, and I'LL NEVER WALK ALONE for this hope stems from within, and what lies within me, within my heart, is my soul and the AURA that is still looking for a way out.
So, where should I go now? what should I do now? I still have no idea .FULLSTOP.
