Confucius please save me!

• Success depends on previous preparation, and without such preparation there is sure to be failure

• A person who has committed a mistake and does not correct it is committing another mistake

• You cannot open a book without learning something

These three quotes by Confucious really make a lot of sense to me and explains a lot about what I am going through right now. Confucious please grant me with FOCUS! Allow me to open the dam book and learn, not memorise! Bless me so that I can forget past mistakes and focus on the current important issue = examinations. Let me enjoy the process of success. I'll work very hard, I'll try to work very hard. I do not want to sit here 3 weeks later wishing that I should have worked harder.

Three sentences by William Shakespeare for getting success:

KNOW MORE THAN OTHERS

WORK MORE THAN OTHERS

EXPECT LESS THAN OTHERS

Best Story

*One old man was sitting with his 25 years old son in the train. Train is about to leave the station. All the passengers are settling down into their seats. As the train started the young man was filled with a lot of joy and curiosity. He was sitting on the window side. He put out one hand and felt the passing air. He shouted, "Papa see all the trees are going behind". Old man smile and admired his son’s feelings.

Beside the young man one couple was sitting and listening to the conversation between father and son. They were little awkward with the attitude of the 25 years old man behaving like a small child.

Suddenly the young man again shouted, "Papa see the pond and animals. Clouds are moving with the train". Couple was watching the young man in embarrassment. Then it started raining and some of rain drops touches the young man's hand. He is filled with joy and he closed his eyes. He shouted again," Papa it's raining, water is touching me, see papa".

Couple couldn't help themselves and ask the old man. Why don't you visit the Doctor and get your son treated. Old man said," *Yes, We were from the hospital. Today my son got his eyes for the first time in his life".*

*Moral of the story is; we must not come to any conclusion until we know all the facts*

LIFE goes on...

FOOTBALL goes on.... even without Xabi Alonso

I thought it was evident that without Alonso, it will be a missed opportunity for him to get his hands on the exclusive BPL title since ChrisRon is gone and it will be a missed opportunity for me to celebrate as a fan of the BPL champions ever since i became a die hard fan.

Looking at their first game of the season, we lost 2-1 to Tottenham, it felt as though as all hopes are gone! However, Midweek match against Stoke, we thump them 4-0, it was then i realised that the team has moved on, so i should be on the verge of doing so. We are still a strong side with the addition of Johnson and i hope Aquilani will rise up and prove his worth. Regardless, i still couldn't believe that Alonso is in the same starting 11 as ChrisRon. Let's face it, he is spanish so definitely the La Liga means more than the premier league to him! I will keep my fingers crossed for this season...

It's Here!

Stealth Mode

At this time of the season, everyone will bound to be having their own modes, whatever you name it. In my case, it's stealth mode, meaning less nonsense , more concentrated focus! However, there are some barriers to it, namely

• Facebook
• Friends for Sale
• Restaurant City
• Mouse Hunt
• Biotronics
• TV

So much for my stealth mode! After a trip to the temple, I am more than determined to be focus!

Don't PROCRASTINATE!

Switch off the modem!!!

Problems solved!!

WORK WORK!!

Wish me LUCK!!

No Boundaries

Ohh
Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want
But how long can you wait
Every moment lasts forever
When you feel you've lost your way

What if my chances were already gone
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you gave me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit you stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down
Jumped every bridge I've run every line
I risk being safe, I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you and your dreams

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
Just when you think the road is going no where
Just when you almost gave up all your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries
No boundaries
Yeah, there are no boundaries


Thank You Adam Lambert =)

This song has pretty much inspired me the moment you sang it. Maybe it's the way you sang it or the meaning of this song. Anyhow, Kris couldn't inspire me at all despite singing the same song against the powerhouse. Regardless of the sexuality issue, you are a great artist, an inspiring artist. I am touched and I felt this song. Thank you.

RM 210.87

That was the amount spent on a particular Monday last week or so. Besides, it was spent in a mere 15 minutes! I realised that spending money is like drinking water, it's really quick! Even "The Pursuit of Happyness" couldn't stop me from that shopping spree. In fact, I wouldn't even consider that as a shopping spree. It was more of a random thing which come to think of it now, it was really a pretty dunderhead of me to be even having those thoughts! I cannot compare my spending patterns and habits to women because men are from Mars. We are different and to be able for me to spend like a woman, that's unacceptable as there were no solid grounds for me to reason that behaviour of mine, which came so, so randomly.

The only reason or excuse that I could possibly think of is marketing as my main major. I have to market myself. I have to be marketable. I need the impression. Anyhow, the main issue here after so much of bullcrap is, I'm BROKE with 1.5 weeks left till the end of the month. Great.

WOAH!!

Keeper jersey

Xabi Alonso =)
















IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!
THE NEW LIVERPOOL AWAY JERSEY 09/10!!!
IT'S DAM NICE!!!!!!
CAN'T WAIT FOR IT TO BE SOLD IN MALAYSIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If your birthday is the lovely kind,
That blossoms from the start,
With beautiful and wished for joys,
That leave a happy heart

If just some of the special things,
You're always glad to do,
Return to touch the hours
With special happiness for you

If all the wishes you receive come true in gentle ways,
Then yours will be the brightest and most magical of days

These birthday wishes come with warm affection and special love for you

from Jas

Un-answer-able?

I believe that some things cannot be answered, only to be questioned. Some things are claimed, proclaimed, some are scientifically proven, some are myths, some are meant to be proven, some are just gimmicks, some are just there for the taking, and some are there to make a fortune. Some are just un-answer-able despite numerous attempts trying to solve the puzzle by either manipulating ourselves to believe that there is an answer to the question or trying to find the best possible reason for the happening and hold on to that belief as long as possible. For all we know, the truth might not be out there or maybe, it is really out there?

Time is an essential factor in determining the truth of something. Try asking a kid or even young teens like us about dealing with death? That is not even our time to even think about it, or even seek the truth of after-life/after-death. What about those who are ready for it? Those whose time is up and riped awaiting for the moment of truth, the doubts surrounding his/her entire life?

Allow me to tell a story of a noble lady. A lady who took care of 7 children despite the fact that they are not even from her womb. My mom was one of the 7. Due to the difficulties in business and adversities trying to make ends meet for their 7 children, my grandparents were often out for business. Which explains why all 7 of my aunts and uncles including my mom are so attached to this lady whom were their caretaker even until present. A lady who sacrificed her life for the sake of these 7 children, thus unmarried but her sacrifices were worthwhile as she gained 7 children whom treated her with love and care as though she was their mother.

My mother was especially attached to her because theoretically based on an oral contract(those were the days), my grandparents gave my mom away to her. The main factor would be financial instability (my mom is the 3rd child) and the other minor factor would be how disobedient, naugthy she was and the poor relationship between my grandpa and my mom. So there the lady was joyous and happy that a maidenhead like her could be gifted a child. However, oral contracts were so popular to be true those days and given the fact that no parent will give up on their flesh and blood, the contract did not BIND, or rather, my grandparents rescinded it. Why? Simple. What happens if a liability(disobedient, naughty, poor relationship) turns out to be an asset(prettiest and most decent among 4 daughters which attracts guys from a RICH family)? You tell me.

So can any reasonable person behold the lady's pain? She was so hopeful in bringing up this child and for all she knows, its all lies and false hope but what can she do? Does voicing up aid her pain? Regardless, mom says it's okay. What matter most is the heart, the thought and actions to care for her. As mom's offsprings, we were brought up by her to love, respect and learn from this lady. This lady is supposedly our grandma, a role model to everyone. Her sacrifices are sometimes taken for granted but not my mom, not us.

Recently she got really ill. At the age of 80 plus she's still a lady with a strong will although parts of her body are failing her. Hence I had more frequent visits to talk to her, see her, listen to her and eat just about every hour! Just to make the old lady happy when she sees us eat. Despite all these, she's still sad and I was always there listening to her. I am very helpless, I don't know what to say or answer when she just struck me with some questions.

"Ken, what do you normally do at home when u guys are not playing sports or when u r free? Watch Tv? Haihz. I barely watch Tv now because of my poor vision. I can't even read the newspaper. I can only sit and listen to some classic golden oldies song. It's boring sitting on the sofa everyday."

"Ken, my legs are failing me. They are always numb and I can't even walk properly without the help of maid or u guys. I'm afraid that I will be paralysed. Will I? Then I would have caused alot of problems to everyone."

(after a telephone conversation) "Huh? A and B are gone already(dead/deceased)? So fast? They were in the old folks home for 4 years already. I thought they were quite healthy. One by one they are going to the grave"

"Ken, why don't u go eat? I don't feel like eating. I have no appetite and no more teeth to even bite. Go eat. I'm happy when u all eat."

"Ken, who is that ...? Erm, that's..?Ah pei's mom, what's her name again? Haihz, even my memory is failing me."

"Ken, I'm feeling weaker by the day. Is my time up ready? Is it time?"

I was speechless. It's un-answer-able. All I could answer was " You are very healthy, don't think of unnecessary things." What else am I supposed to say? How should I answer? My only expression to her was only smiling and asking her other questions trying to change the topic. She would just stone and look at me stationarily before starting an entire different conversation.

We are all prepared for the worst. Those whom are not in her shoes will never understand what she'll bound to be experiencing. No one will really feel for her evnthough they will try to talk to her as much as possible trying to persuade her like a child and then? Buy her the things that she likes or her favourite singer's album? And then? And then what? These are all physical materials. She may appear happy with the company of a band of kids but when she's all alone, the fact will slowly creep into her thoughts. To say that she's prepared for death is mere puffery. It's something all of us fear when we are so close to it. We all can start preparing to face death now? By then we will be well prepared? When we are so close to it, the un-answer-able questions will come into play, again. What will happen? How? Where? When? Who?

Although I can put myself in her shoes, I can never find out the answers. I do not know what to expect, neither does she. All I can do is to enjoy the last bits and pieces of memories with her so that she will remain part of my memory. Her teachings, her blessings and her words of wisdom will always be with me whereever I go, just like Ah Mah(dad's mom). Although Ah Mah is no longer here, it's been 3 years, she is still fresh in my memory and I really really missed her. She brought me up since the day I was born. I will be prepared no matter what happens. Just like Ah Mah, the lady will be an inspiration for me as I look up to them. I will cherish the moments with her now as much as I can and when she's up there with Ah Mah, she'll have a place in my heart too.


GOD BLESS

Easier to run by myself?

What do i do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my insticts blindly?
Or do I follow the norms boldly?

Do I hide my pride from these negativity?
Do I lose myself in these bad dreams?
And give in to sadly sorrow thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I stand up and do something about it?
DO I make the right moves that I'm lost within?
Or DO I find myself within my wrong moves?

I can’t hold on watching everything spin,
With thoughts of failure sinking in,
I just end up getting hurt again,
By myself ?

So would it be easier to run?
Replacing this pain with something numb?
Would it be so much easier to leave?
Than face all this pain here all alone,
By myself ?

Running only gets me further away from myself,
Replacing doesn't stop the rot,
Doesn't put the bad haunting dreams to a halt,
Leaving only places my pride in deeper negativity.

So If I could change I would,
Take back the pain I would,
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would,
If I could stand up and take the blame I would,
If I could take all the shame I would,
Turn it into lessons not to be forgotten I would,
Take time to realise I would again,
Retrace one wrong choice that I made I would,
Turn it into morals to be remembered,
By Myself !

Happy Belated 20th!

Due to my hectic schedules of assignments, participation in clubs and societies, I finally found some time to reflect on 7th March 2009, or the few days around it.



















Airmaster Bodykit & Tinting = RM 1600
A big thank you to all my family members including myself! ( cuz i paid almost half of the amount !! =.= )





This Liverpool European Away Jersey( although they were knocked out by Chelsea yday ) was from my friends! Mostly due to MY VAST SOCIAL NETWORK! =p So thanks everybody and thank myself for making the initiative to ask them to buy for me! >.< Special thanks to AJ for attempting to collect the cash cuz i am well aware of the scope of my large social network!! =P


To one of the first ones who handed me this, thank you! Notice how big this shirt is?? FYI, I'm getting slimmer by the day! =P





And LAST BUT NOT LEAST!! From my beloved, my Liverpool towel!! The one that I'm using now has been used since 2002 till now! This is something new! Thanks jas! =)

We Lost =(

Once an opportunity is presented, it will be there for everyone! If you missed it, sorry it will not present itself again in such a short time. Some athletes worked so hard with years of sufferings and pain-enduring trainings just for that ONE event which barely lasts a minute! Nevertheless, things don't always go our way but is it wrong to condemn ourselves if we do not reach out for that presented opportunity? Will that be our own fault?

Some people waste a lifetime waiting for one opportunity while some waste their presented chances time and time again! So how do we justify the fairness of this given opportunities? Is it within our grasp? Can we create our chances through hard work? Or will it eventually appear? Opportunities are just bonuses meant to be taken, some might agree but the fact of the matter is, do we deserve our chances? Does an athlete deserves to lose given the amount of blood, sweat and tears he/she sacrificed? Not in a year but many years.

If you had one shot, one opportunity, will you capture it or let it slip away? I felt that I was too ignorant that it slipped away a little , not forgetting the fact that I did not capture it solidly given the highest possibility of doing so! Which explains the lost. It's no point pointing fingers at officials because what's done, is done. It's over and there's nothing we can do to alter the results, nothing to do to justify man-made errors. "To err is human", that's the only positive fact that protects the mistakes conceded by humans. Come to think of it, who doesn't have their own "err-moments"? My question is, if your "err-time" happens to ruin the opportunity of others, where do we seek justice?

Political wars and wars of any kind portrays the exact example. Think of a single mistake by a party that would cost the opportunities of the other party. Think of a simple miscommunication that would cost destruction to another party. Think of a misfired action which would cost millions of life.
Now, again, where do we seek justice? So, mistakes are just a plain excuse to ruin the hopes of others?

Are mistakes accidental, coincidental or avoidable? In this case, I would say avoidable. Professionals avoid mistakes, not covering up mistakes another time to make up to the mistakes made previously. Why call themselves professionals if mistakes are so much that it seems inevitable?

My thoughts tell me that these people are unforgivable. Period.

Liverpool 4 vs Real Madrid 0 (agg 5-0)

BRAVO!! =)

= D

I am so HAPPY!! =D

FINALLY!!! FINALLY!! After a year of downfall, I finally got what I wanted or deserve for my hardwork? Maybe so, maybe not but I know myself better =)

Today is not only my day. It will be everyone's day! It made my mom's day, all my family member's day especially my dad's day whom is always waiting for this day to finally arrive after one year! All the disappointments for the past one year vanquished with this one small little achievement in my life! Everyone is happy! My parents are so hyped up! That was the only thing they were hoping for and that's the only thing i couldn't fulfill the past one year!

I can listen to their change of tone from stressed up-exhausted-tired mundane/menial routine to JOY the moment I informed them about it.

What dad said was true, mistakes are the disguise of success. I will continue the legacy...

Without further delay, I would like to THANK

• My DARLING (Caufield =/) for her endless support and cheering to keep me going, keep me hanging on! AND, the lucky lucky pen she gave to me! =D How nice would it be if she's around? I wanna just hug her like how i hug my bolster! =(
• My family
• The friends whom are part of me =)
  

To some, this is no biggie but to someone who has finally managed to achieve it after a duration of one year, IT IS SOMETHING BIG! A year of tears, frustration, anger, sadness, tension that has to be forgotten!

This is only the beginning! I treat this as a catalyst for further improvements! I will be even inspired to enjoy the course of uni life whilst achieving things that I always dreamt of achieving!

=.=

NEVER and I mean NEVER EVER drink oat and milk together because you will experience this thing so common in your life known as "lau sai" aka diarrhoea !

Everyone might or I should say will ask what is wrong with me and this OAT thingy! The fact is, I have this little thing that I shouldn't be having at this age called "HIGH CHOLESTEROL" and all credits are given to my parents or rather my dad!

So, what is so great about this thing called OAT? I have no idea or what so ever! All I know is that my checkup is nearing and all I need to do to lower the cholesterol is to eat/drink OAT!

OAT can be made/cooked in different ways and you wouldn't wanna know MY version of OAT!

Needless to say, that's the one and only non medicinal method to reduce it! At the age of 20, all my peers are showing their sympathy towards me and they feel me! LOL. Everyone is enjoying life, enjoying the delicacies of whatever-you-name-it fusion and I on the other hand, have to control my intakes!

No fried food! No oily food! To most, they don't even care! However, I am health conscious! >.< To put it in other words, I am forced to!! Hence =.="

OAT OAT OAT!!!

WEBCAM!!

After numerous attempts of relocating the installer for my old webcam, I eventually decided to give up and bought myself a new one because I'm desperately in need of one! Just for my dear over in Australia. >.<

She has been pestering/complaining about my inability to video call her through skype! MAYBE she misses me, OR, she's dying to see my highlighted hair, waiting to comment/SCOLD! >.<

Speaking of which, no one has really seen it! She didn't even get to see me (what more my highlighted hair cuz I did it 2 days after she left! LOL) at all ever since arrival! 12th till 25th, roughly around 2 weeks! But well, I finally got it after my tiring week of work!

So, this is just a glimpse of the quality of the so-called 8.1 megapixel webcam...







The resolution was better than what I had expected and the fact that the highlighted part of my hair is so obvious, that means all in all a worth buy! =)

p/s: I look like I'm from LLL(lala-land) =.=

Am I As Hardworking As An Ant ?

Or are my colleagues as lazy and laid back as a pig? I really do not know? Right now I'm in a coffee shop, having breakfast and absolutely nothing to do as I'm the earliest here and the office, a cohesive one, is still not opened! My contract will end in a matter of 48 hours but I can strongly say that I have worked or at least been at the work place for another extra 48 hours. Being the earliest every single day is just weird and surprising to believe. Even I couldn't believe it! >.<

As the earliest, I always get to take my time to set up the laptop given, chit chat with Vivian(accountant of the company) as she will be the one officially opening the office for the day. Sometimes I even reached earlier than her! Despite that, it's Saturday today so she's not working. Thus here I am wondering who the hell would open the door for me? Victor(my supervisor)? He's a lazy joking bugger! LOL!

Anyway, this little post is the part of my life called "Being Early! Impossible? Believe it!" =)

Goodbye Love, Hi Loneliness

YEAH RIGHT!!! =p


2 days before Valentines =( , I sent her off to Caufield, Australia
Goodbye my lover,
You've always been the one for me,
When I'm down
When I'm out
When I'm emo
When I'm frustrated
When I'm happy
When I'm crazy
When I'm super ultra Lame
But never when I'm angry =)

I thought it's a piece of cake but the truth is, life without her is so much more aimless, uneasy and the walls are talking! (I know that's pure exaggeration =p but that's how i feel)

It's okay, we still contact well, well enough for us not to be apart mentally =)

Actually I'm sad. And she's happy.






So, what's installed for me during Valentines? A family reunion dinner (dad's side)


Aren't they cute? Reminds me of myself >.<


Jealous much!








It's okay, Ronald McDonalds will be with me 24 hours!

unique

The world is so unique, don't you think so? Sometimes things go your way unexpectedly and sometimes things get shitty and sometimes for all you know, you are in deep shit. Everything seems so unpredictable, and funny. You scratch your head in frustration finding for something that appears to be important to you, only to give up on it. Sometimes things seem so unpredictable that miraculously, you found something important that you've given up a long time ago. Funny it seems. At one end you are so frustrated for not finding something, but at another end you are delighted to have finally found something you that you once were finding for it but given up on. This feeling is indescribable. However it sums up to this : For every given up hope, there seems to be a new hope, or a revived hope. That is the only positive way of trying to describe my feelings now.

Hot N Cold

Cuz you're Hot and you're Cold,
You're In and you're Out,
You're Up and you're Down,
You're Wrong when it's Right,
It's Black when it's White,
You Stand when I Sit,
You Laugh when I Cry,
You Run while I Walk,
You Drink while I Eat,
You Kick when I Punch,
You Think when I Dream,
You Smile while I Frown,
You Squat while I Jump,
You Scream while I Whisper,
You're Young while I'm Old,
You're Serious while I'm Chilled,
You're Cute while I'm Not,
You're Smart while I'm Ngog,
You're Everything while I'm Nothing,
You Cook I'll Eat,
You Talk I'll Shut...

Stealth Mode & Happy New Year '09

Stealth Modes/Emo Modes are just part and parcel of my life. Occassionally, rarely, frequently? It's hard to say and hard to judge but not many matters/issues would dump me into this state of my imbalance lifestyle of deprived sleep, and hectic schedule. Once I'm on this mode, it's hard to get me off the track. How I wonder if I can adopt this attitude when it comes to studying? Staying focus and always on track, not procrastinating a single bit. However, let's face it, we are all nothing but humans.

Anyway, Happy '09! A new year begins with arguements, loads of work and mismatches of everything I do. Great! Nevertheless, I will remain positive. Negativity seems to be creeping closer and eventually taking over my life! Not that I want it but I have escaped from it and certainly hoping not to let it take control of my life, again!