What do i do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my insticts blindly?
Or do I follow the norms boldly?
Do I hide my pride from these negativity?
Do I lose myself in these bad dreams?
And give in to sadly sorrow thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I stand up and do something about it?
DO I make the right moves that I'm lost within?
Or DO I find myself within my wrong moves?
I can’t hold on watching everything spin,
With thoughts of failure sinking in,
I just end up getting hurt again,
By myself ?
So would it be easier to run?
Replacing this pain with something numb?
Would it be so much easier to leave?
Than face all this pain here all alone,
By myself ?
Running only gets me further away from myself,
Replacing doesn't stop the rot,
Doesn't put the bad haunting dreams to a halt,
Leaving only places my pride in deeper negativity.
So If I could change I would,
Take back the pain I would,
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would,
If I could stand up and take the blame I would,
If I could take all the shame I would,
Turn it into lessons not to be forgotten I would,
Take time to realise I would again,
Retrace one wrong choice that I made I would,
Turn it into morals to be remembered,
By Myself !
Liverbird on my chest
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Happy Belated 20th!
Due to my hectic schedules of assignments, participation in clubs and societies, I finally found some time to reflect on 7th March 2009, or the few days around it.
Airmaster Bodykit & Tinting = RM 1600
A big thank you to all my family members including myself! ( cuz i paid almost half of the amount !! =.= )
This Liverpool European Away Jersey( although they were knocked out by Chelsea yday ) was from my friends! Mostly due to MY VAST SOCIAL NETWORK! =p So thanks everybody and thank myself for making the initiative to ask them to buy for me! >.< Special thanks to AJ for attempting to collect the cash cuz i am well aware of the scope of my large social network!! =P
To one of the first ones who handed me this, thank you! Notice how big this shirt is?? FYI, I'm getting slimmer by the day! =P
And LAST BUT NOT LEAST!! From my beloved, my Liverpool towel!! The one that I'm using now has been used since 2002 till now! This is something new! Thanks jas! =)
Airmaster Bodykit & Tinting = RM 1600
A big thank you to all my family members including myself! ( cuz i paid almost half of the amount !! =.= )
This Liverpool European Away Jersey( although they were knocked out by Chelsea yday ) was from my friends! Mostly due to MY VAST SOCIAL NETWORK! =p So thanks everybody and thank myself for making the initiative to ask them to buy for me! >.< Special thanks to AJ for attempting to collect the cash cuz i am well aware of the scope of my large social network!! =P
To one of the first ones who handed me this, thank you! Notice how big this shirt is?? FYI, I'm getting slimmer by the day! =P
And LAST BUT NOT LEAST!! From my beloved, my Liverpool towel!! The one that I'm using now has been used since 2002 till now! This is something new! Thanks jas! =)
Thursday, March 19, 2009
We Lost =(
Once an opportunity is presented, it will be there for everyone! If you missed it, sorry it will not present itself again in such a short time. Some athletes worked so hard with years of sufferings and pain-enduring trainings just for that ONE event which barely lasts a minute! Nevertheless, things don't always go our way but is it wrong to condemn ourselves if we do not reach out for that presented opportunity? Will that be our own fault?
Some people waste a lifetime waiting for one opportunity while some waste their presented chances time and time again! So how do we justify the fairness of this given opportunities? Is it within our grasp? Can we create our chances through hard work? Or will it eventually appear? Opportunities are just bonuses meant to be taken, some might agree but the fact of the matter is, do we deserve our chances? Does an athlete deserves to lose given the amount of blood, sweat and tears he/she sacrificed? Not in a year but many years.
If you had one shot, one opportunity, will you capture it or let it slip away? I felt that I was too ignorant that it slipped away a little , not forgetting the fact that I did not capture it solidly given the highest possibility of doing so! Which explains the lost. It's no point pointing fingers at officials because what's done, is done. It's over and there's nothing we can do to alter the results, nothing to do to justify man-made errors. "To err is human", that's the only positive fact that protects the mistakes conceded by humans. Come to think of it, who doesn't have their own "err-moments"? My question is, if your "err-time" happens to ruin the opportunity of others, where do we seek justice?
Political wars and wars of any kind portrays the exact example. Think of a single mistake by a party that would cost the opportunities of the other party. Think of a simple miscommunication that would cost destruction to another party. Think of a misfired action which would cost millions of life.
Now, again, where do we seek justice? So, mistakes are just a plain excuse to ruin the hopes of others?
Are mistakes accidental, coincidental or avoidable? In this case, I would say avoidable. Professionals avoid mistakes, not covering up mistakes another time to make up to the mistakes made previously. Why call themselves professionals if mistakes are so much that it seems inevitable?
My thoughts tell me that these people are unforgivable. Period.
Some people waste a lifetime waiting for one opportunity while some waste their presented chances time and time again! So how do we justify the fairness of this given opportunities? Is it within our grasp? Can we create our chances through hard work? Or will it eventually appear? Opportunities are just bonuses meant to be taken, some might agree but the fact of the matter is, do we deserve our chances? Does an athlete deserves to lose given the amount of blood, sweat and tears he/she sacrificed? Not in a year but many years.
If you had one shot, one opportunity, will you capture it or let it slip away? I felt that I was too ignorant that it slipped away a little , not forgetting the fact that I did not capture it solidly given the highest possibility of doing so! Which explains the lost. It's no point pointing fingers at officials because what's done, is done. It's over and there's nothing we can do to alter the results, nothing to do to justify man-made errors. "To err is human", that's the only positive fact that protects the mistakes conceded by humans. Come to think of it, who doesn't have their own "err-moments"? My question is, if your "err-time" happens to ruin the opportunity of others, where do we seek justice?
Political wars and wars of any kind portrays the exact example. Think of a single mistake by a party that would cost the opportunities of the other party. Think of a simple miscommunication that would cost destruction to another party. Think of a misfired action which would cost millions of life.
Now, again, where do we seek justice? So, mistakes are just a plain excuse to ruin the hopes of others?
Are mistakes accidental, coincidental or avoidable? In this case, I would say avoidable. Professionals avoid mistakes, not covering up mistakes another time to make up to the mistakes made previously. Why call themselves professionals if mistakes are so much that it seems inevitable?
My thoughts tell me that these people are unforgivable. Period.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
= D
I am so HAPPY!! =D
FINALLY!!! FINALLY!! After a year of downfall, I finally got what I wanted or deserve for my hardwork? Maybe so, maybe not but I know myself better =)
Today is not only my day. It will be everyone's day! It made my mom's day, all my family member's day especially my dad's day whom is always waiting for this day to finally arrive after one year! All the disappointments for the past one year vanquished with this one small little achievement in my life! Everyone is happy! My parents are so hyped up! That was the only thing they were hoping for and that's the only thing i couldn't fulfill the past one year!
I can listen to their change of tone from stressed up-exhausted-tired mundane/menial routine to JOY the moment I informed them about it.
What dad said was true, mistakes are the disguise of success. I will continue the legacy...
Without further delay, I would like to THANK
- My DARLING (Caufield =/) for her endless support and cheering to keep me going, keep me hanging on! AND, the lucky lucky pen she gave to me! =D How nice would it be if she's around? I wanna just hug her like how i hug my bolster! =(
- My family
- The friends whom are part of me =)
To some, this is no biggie but to someone who has finally managed to achieve it after a duration of one year, IT IS SOMETHING BIG! A year of tears, frustration, anger, sadness, tension that has to be forgotten!
This is only the beginning! I treat this as a catalyst for further improvements! I will be even inspired to enjoy the course of uni life whilst achieving things that I always dreamt of achieving!
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
=.=
NEVER and I mean NEVER EVER drink oat and milk together because you will experience this thing so common in your life known as "lau sai" aka diarrhoea !
Everyone might or I should say will ask what is wrong with me and this OAT thingy! The fact is, I have this little thing that I shouldn't be having at this age called "HIGH CHOLESTEROL" and all credits are given to my parents or rather my dad!
So, what is so great about this thing called OAT? I have no idea or what so ever! All I know is that my checkup is nearing and all I need to do to lower the cholesterol is to eat/drink OAT!
OAT can be made/cooked in different ways and you wouldn't wanna know MY version of OAT!
Needless to say, that's the one and only non medicinal method to reduce it! At the age of 20, all my peers are showing their sympathy towards me and they feel me! LOL. Everyone is enjoying life, enjoying the delicacies of whatever-you-name-it fusion and I on the other hand, have to control my intakes!
No fried food! No oily food! To most, they don't even care! However, I am health conscious! >.< To put it in other words, I am forced to!! Hence =.="
OAT OAT OAT!!!
Everyone might or I should say will ask what is wrong with me and this OAT thingy! The fact is, I have this little thing that I shouldn't be having at this age called "HIGH CHOLESTEROL" and all credits are given to my parents or rather my dad!
So, what is so great about this thing called OAT? I have no idea or what so ever! All I know is that my checkup is nearing and all I need to do to lower the cholesterol is to eat/drink OAT!
OAT can be made/cooked in different ways and you wouldn't wanna know MY version of OAT!
Needless to say, that's the one and only non medicinal method to reduce it! At the age of 20, all my peers are showing their sympathy towards me and they feel me! LOL. Everyone is enjoying life, enjoying the delicacies of whatever-you-name-it fusion and I on the other hand, have to control my intakes!
No fried food! No oily food! To most, they don't even care! However, I am health conscious! >.< To put it in other words, I am forced to!! Hence =.="
OAT OAT OAT!!!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
WEBCAM!!
After numerous attempts of relocating the installer for my old webcam, I eventually decided to give up and bought myself a new one because I'm desperately in need of one! Just for my dear over in Australia. >.<
She has been pestering/complaining about my inability to video call her through skype! MAYBE she misses me, OR, she's dying to see my highlighted hair, waiting to comment/SCOLD! >.<
Speaking of which, no one has really seen it! She didn't even get to see me (what more my highlighted hair cuz I did it 2 days after she left! LOL) at all ever since arrival! 12th till 25th, roughly around 2 weeks! But well, I finally got it after my tiring week of work!
So, this is just a glimpse of the quality of the so-called 8.1 megapixel webcam...
The resolution was better than what I had expected and the fact that the highlighted part of my hair is so obvious, that means all in all a worth buy! =)
p/s: I look like I'm from LLL(lala-land) =.=
She has been pestering/complaining about my inability to video call her through skype! MAYBE she misses me, OR, she's dying to see my highlighted hair, waiting to comment/SCOLD! >.<
Speaking of which, no one has really seen it! She didn't even get to see me (what more my highlighted hair cuz I did it 2 days after she left! LOL) at all ever since arrival! 12th till 25th, roughly around 2 weeks! But well, I finally got it after my tiring week of work!
So, this is just a glimpse of the quality of the so-called 8.1 megapixel webcam...
The resolution was better than what I had expected and the fact that the highlighted part of my hair is so obvious, that means all in all a worth buy! =)
p/s: I look like I'm from LLL(lala-land) =.=
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)