Thoughts

can turn into an idea. An idea can manifest and shape a person's beliefs.

" What is the most resilient parasite? Bacteria? A virus? An intestinal worm? An idea. Resilient... highly contagious. Once an idea has taken hold of the brain it's almost impossible to eradicate. An idea that is fully formed - fully understood - that sticks; right in there somewhere. "


Ever since your passing I had a seed planted in my mind telling me that I dont have to be afraid of death because I know you are waiting for me somewhere only we will know...

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I want to wake up every morning knowing how I will end the day : satisfied and no regrets that I've lived the fullest for that day. And not wake up knowing that heck, I'll be late to work, wondering what is installed for me today. All these made me stop for a while and ponder upon my own life, using Steve Job's life as a parameter.

Do I even know what am I meant for? Am I meant for bigger things or is this what I am ? Is this what I'm suppose to do? Am I even fit for this? Am I even in my comfort zone? When am I suppose to step out of it? Can I survive it?

Like what Steve Jobs once said, death is the biggest motivator in our lives. We know life is short and uncertain, that's why people strive for the best and when their time is up, they can look back at their flourished lives with no regrets. As we age, death will inevitably draw closer to our realization. So? Are we going to make a change, or are we making a big fuss about it without any actions ( NATO = No Action Talk Only)? I'm certainly making a big fuss out of it hoping for the day when technology becomes so advance, we don't have to die.

"Like a cyclist, we must keep our eyes on the road ahead, continually adjust and adapt to stay balanced and move forward. Once we stop peddling, we come to a standstill and fall. In sports or in business, stopping or slowing down is not an option. If the terrain is tougher and more uphill, we just have to peddle harder and faster, to keep moving and staying in the race. Times may be tough, but business must go on. We need to operate more productively in an unforgiving market environment and learn to cope with uncertainty and volatility."

Does it apply to life as well? Continue to adjust and adapt, be relevant? Then we're just slaves to what the society/economy wants us to be? Steve Jobs would have disagreed with this, as he did not adjust and adapt, but embrace the future with what he wants the world to be, and how he can create a need in society. Regardless of whether we are slaves or not, one thing is certain, we can't stop peddling. Life must go on whether we like it or not, it's just a matter of how fast you peddle. As we are peddling steadily wading through all the bumps in life, we'll come to a point where we realised that we've peddled so far and we're on the verge of reaching our final destination : gates of heaven / hell. And then what? Look back at the colorful journey, smile and goodbye? Is life really as simple as that? Really?

I just don't want to forget the route that I took. I want my journey to be as significant as possible. I want to touch lives along the way, I want them know my significance ( kinda selfish but well.. I think I want pride and fame lol ). BUT THEN again, before all these, I must start somewhere.

I must start the day knowing exactly how it is going to end : waking up late, yawning after lunch only after midday and driving through the stupid peanut butter JAM isn't how I want the day to be. GREAT.

Where'd You Go?

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the night always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying not to stay awake,
'Cause your image and words always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, I wished I had talked to you more,
I wished I dialled your number more often than you did to me
But when I pick up the phone I don't have much to say,


So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you,
Until the day I succeed far better than you,
I will always ask myself "Where'd you go?"

PURPOSE

How do we know what we are meant for? What is the purpose of us being here? The purpose of living is awaiting death? How about evading / escaping death? I am lost. Why take someone's live when they have not even discovered their purpose in life?

Everything has a reason,  a purpose

Take life as it comes. No, we should not leave our lives in the hands of others. Take control. But there's only one thing we cannot control : Death

Overcome the fear of death:

We all know that one day we have to leave this world. Still we are afraid of death. The truth is no one is going to die for you; they may be depressed for some time. Time heals everything and they will carry on. Some might choose to leave this world but some did not? What about those who were forced to leave to make up the numbers?
 
Probably , perseverance is the best solution

Hey Dad,

I got my very first name card!!! WEEEE!! I hope it'll be a start for greater things ahead! =)

Love,
Son

Joss Sticks

Or Incense?

What is the significance?

To pay respect? Worship?

Or just a ritual?

Not offering it often?

So?

Does it mean you don't respect the person?

You don't love the person?

You don't miss the person?

I hold you dear in my heart,

I don't offer incense NOT

Because I don't respect you

It's because

It's all in the heart and mind

And I don't feel that you left us

I still feel that you are around

That's why I can smile

Some dont understand

My emotions and feelings

When I think of you

Sometimes I might tear

But most of the time

I will smile =)

I think what it says is true. It's all in the heart and the thoughts that count. It's something between you and I. I do not need to show others how much I respect you, nor show others how much I miss you or how much you mean to me. The only one who should know is you.

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Where have you been?
I've been missing you.
I see ppl talking to their dads' over the phone
And I miss your calls asking me
"Where are you now?"
"How did the paper go? Can do? Koyak?"
Or scolding me "Where the hell are you?"
When it's only 11 pm.
I miss dialling your number just to tell you
"Di, I've passed all!"
And he'll reply "Good Good"
*goes to the bar to celebrate with his friends*
Using me as an excuse to drink.
I know you are always proud of me.
But I cant tell you now how proud am I to have you.
I can only show it by succeeding in my career
And letting ppl know that I am your son
I miss your voice when I hear ppl singing
Your fav karaoke song, we dont get bored of it.
And also your lame jokes,
Making us as lame/funny/lamer than you
The biggest resemblence I guess
Including the way you carry yourself
As a person, son, friend, father and husband
The things that u exposed me to when i was younger
Comes in handy now when i am working
Just like what u told me "I am telling u things 10 years your age"
I remember telling u bout my friends during secondary school
Telling you bout my uni assignments and assholes in my group
Giving me ideas for my assignments
Telling us about ur experiences thoughout your life
Altho it has been repeated for the umpth time
Your intelligence, observation skills and street-wise thinking
Is something I would try to emulate, I hope to be equally good
We were supposed to go to Korea together,
So near yet so far.
We were suppose to go to Liverpool together,
Looks like I'll be a lone ranger
I will carry u in my heart all the way to Liverpool
And I wont forget the promises we made
If I ever get the tatoo,
You'll be part of me, you've always been, always will be
And you'll never walk alone