Hey Dad,

I got my very first name card!!! WEEEE!! I hope it'll be a start for greater things ahead! =)

Love,
Son

Joss Sticks

Or Incense?

What is the significance?

To pay respect? Worship?

Or just a ritual?

Not offering it often?

So?

Does it mean you don't respect the person?

You don't love the person?

You don't miss the person?

I hold you dear in my heart,

I don't offer incense NOT

Because I don't respect you

It's because

It's all in the heart and mind

And I don't feel that you left us

I still feel that you are around

That's why I can smile

Some dont understand

My emotions and feelings

When I think of you

Sometimes I might tear

But most of the time

I will smile =)

I think what it says is true. It's all in the heart and the thoughts that count. It's something between you and I. I do not need to show others how much I respect you, nor show others how much I miss you or how much you mean to me. The only one who should know is you.

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Where have you been?
I've been missing you.
I see ppl talking to their dads' over the phone
And I miss your calls asking me
"Where are you now?"
"How did the paper go? Can do? Koyak?"
Or scolding me "Where the hell are you?"
When it's only 11 pm.
I miss dialling your number just to tell you
"Di, I've passed all!"
And he'll reply "Good Good"
*goes to the bar to celebrate with his friends*
Using me as an excuse to drink.
I know you are always proud of me.
But I cant tell you now how proud am I to have you.
I can only show it by succeeding in my career
And letting ppl know that I am your son
I miss your voice when I hear ppl singing
Your fav karaoke song, we dont get bored of it.
And also your lame jokes,
Making us as lame/funny/lamer than you
The biggest resemblence I guess
Including the way you carry yourself
As a person, son, friend, father and husband
The things that u exposed me to when i was younger
Comes in handy now when i am working
Just like what u told me "I am telling u things 10 years your age"
I remember telling u bout my friends during secondary school
Telling you bout my uni assignments and assholes in my group
Giving me ideas for my assignments
Telling us about ur experiences thoughout your life
Altho it has been repeated for the umpth time
Your intelligence, observation skills and street-wise thinking
Is something I would try to emulate, I hope to be equally good
We were supposed to go to Korea together,
So near yet so far.
We were suppose to go to Liverpool together,
Looks like I'll be a lone ranger
I will carry u in my heart all the way to Liverpool
And I wont forget the promises we made
If I ever get the tatoo,
You'll be part of me, you've always been, always will be
And you'll never walk alone

11.30

The time has finally stopped at 11.30. A watch can never be timeless. It needs to be constantly reenergized to continue running. Time can never stop moving but the time on an object can. So much for being timeless.

Time cannot be freezed. Once we missed the time, we miss the moment.

Sometimes the same time on a different day might just change your course of life. The 11.30 today and the 11.30 tomorrow is never going to be similar, unless it's a routine, say WORK? =)

Save You

Take a breath


I pull myself together

Just another step till I reach the door

You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you

I wish that I could tell you something

To take it all away



Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I won't give up, I won't go somehow

If it takes me forever I want you to know



When I hear your voice

Its drowning in a whisper

It's just skin and bones

There's nothing left to take

And no matter what I do I can't make myself feel better

If only I could find the answer

To help me understand



Sometimes I wish I could save you

And there're so many things that I want you to know

I wont give up till I make you proud

If it takes me forever I want you to know



That if I fall, stumble down

You'll pick me up off the ground

If I lose faith in myself

You'll give me strength to pull through

Tell me to not give up cause you'll be waiting if I fall

Oh I know you'll be there for me

And I'll be always in your heart


Sometimes I wish I could save you,

And there's so many things that you have not seen

If I could I would save you so that

You can see us grow,

Watch us fly, just like doves

In return feeling your glow



But I know deep down in my heart,

You have already been saved,

You will see us succeed and

Live life happily just like having you by our sides

We'll carry on with your laughter, joy and happiness

who do you think you are?

I learned to live, half alive
And now I have to do it one more time


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart


You won't catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Cuz you're always everyone's sunshine
Who do you think you are?

I feel you're asking all around
If we're anywhere to be found
But we will stay strong
To always live with you in our minds


I've learned to live, half alive
But I want the good old days one more time


It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had told you that "I love you"
‘Eventhough you broke all your promises
And now you're gone
I don't get to get you back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing us apart
I'll remember what's been told
From your heart of gold
So, Don't worry about us
Please rest in peace

Believe?

If only we believed. All things are possible. If only we trusted- there is goodness waiting for us. That miracles do happen, that love surrounds you, that beauty is created for you. Belief is everything. What you believe determines your action. And your actions determine the results you create in your life. Start with your beliefs. They are everything.

To believe is to know that every day

is a new beginning.

It is to trust that miracles happen,

and dreams really do come true.

To believe is to see angels dancing among the clouds,

To know the wonder of a stardust sky

and the wisdom of the man in the moon.

To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart,

The innocence of a child's eyes

and the beauty of an aging hand,

for it is through their teachings we learn to love.

To believe is to find the strength

and courage that lies within us.

When it is time to pick up the pieces and begin again.

To believe is to know we are not alone,

That life is a gift and this is our time to cherish it.

To believe is to know that wonderful surprises

are just waiting to happen,

And all our hopes and dreams are within reach.

If only we believe.